Oh, well...look who decided to show up!
This is how I feel!
I have been painfully neglecting this blogging gig!
Well, for you few readers out there that may still be tagging along on my Reinvention journey,
I have 3 words for ya...
I am back!
I cannot promise for how long, but I am here now!
So...without further ado,
the gears in my noggin have been grinding away at a steady, sometimes frantic, pace.
There are days were the minutes fly by WAY too fast,
and at the end of the day I feel like the famous Salvador Dali clock, you know that droopy, exhausted looking clock...yep, that's me!
Be forewarned...
I have engaged in quite a bit of thinking lately!
(she thinks, she really thinks)
I have been going back to school for quite some time now,
on a path to somewhere in the medical field, but a little unclear of where I am going to end up.
And this is what I have been thinking about.
I have come to the conclusion that the reason why I cannot not decide because...
Should I be a nurse?
Should I be a surgical tech?
If I am a nurse, should I eventually get my master's?
How about a Physician Assistant?
The reason I cannot decide is because
I want to be a Doctor!
I know what you are thinking...
because, trust me...
I have thought all these thoughts myself!
So many things make this dream completely, over the moon,
unrealistic!
Oh- I'm too old!
My kids are too young!
The fact that I have kids is enough to make it unrealistic!
It's so expensive!
Am I even smart enough?
And the list goes on for miles...
But, here is the thing...
Serendipity has worked its wonder lately and pleaded it's case!
In the recent weeks I have been fortunate enough to have some great insight bestowed upon me.
I was talking to a patient in the ER a couple of weeks ago, who turned out to be a physician herself. She asked why I am volunteer, so we talking about me not being able to decide which direction to go. And I told her how if I was younger I would love to be a Doctor.
So, she asked how old I was.
I respond in a ho-hum manner...
"33-just way too old!"
And she said...
" Are you kidding me? I didn't start medical school until my mid-thirties.
Life happens, I had three children! But I wasn't going to let that stop me!
And since when is there an age limit?
If you want to be a Doctor, then go be a Doctor!"
And...
so the next day I started my summer classes.
I tried all Spring to get into an online section of one of the classes I am taking.
Well, that didn't happen, but one spot did open up in the typical classroom setting so I took it!
And I am sooooo glad I did!
One of the first things my teacher said was,
"You are not getting older, you are just getter better!
In 10 years, you will still be 10 years older, but in that 10 years, what will you spend your time doing?
Will you live up to your potential?
Or will you say I should-a, could-a, would-a?
The words of these two angels have resonated in my head like a drum.
I cannot stop thinking about what they have said.
I have begun thinking about it this way...
I want to be the best example I can for my 2 children.
I want to teach them to empower themselves and to aim high!
What am I teaching them if I just settle for a life unfulfilled?
Am I teaching them it is OK to settle?
My mom always says she wishes she would have gone to law school
(And one hell of a great lawyer she would make! I tell her she could still do it!)
I don't want to wish I would have done something!
What do you dream about?
Are you living and working towards you dream?
If not...why?
